I quit my job on what may seem like an impulse 2 weeks ago. It was sudden and most of the people around me thought that it was unexpected. What they didn’t know was that I had been unhappy working in my small family owned bookstore for a number of years but had continued on like nothing was wrong out of a sense of duty and of course the always present need for financial security. The job had helped me pay my way through uni and was supposed to give me a safety net while I looked for a new career in my chosen field of psychology. Instead it held me back and failed to provide a much need push into a new life.
Over the 6 months before my decision the thrill of literature and hearty discussion with customers began to lose their gloss. They became over powered by an ever increasing stream of rude customers and intense feeling of being under appreciated. At first I could remind myself of the reasons I used to love working there but eventually all those positives crumbled into oblivion.
My fiancé then realising my stress began a campaign for my happiness. At first it was just little pushes to start looking for another job. Whilst, I did start this process a number of time more often than not my time was taken over by plans for our impending wedding. As my stress heightened and unhappiness grew my fiancé expanded his campaign with statement like “You should just leave” and “I would rather you were happy.” Even at that point I never considered that I could just walk out but one day something snapped. Within a few minutes I made the decision to leave and called my fiancé to ask if he was okay with that. I knew it would mean lumping him with all the financial responsibility and I didn’t want to put any extra stress on him. The response I got was “Do it”. And so I did. I gave a months notice straight away and left 4 weeks later.
So now here I am, nervous and excited about what lies in store for me. I have had a couple of weeks to relax but now my finances are beginning to dwindle and with a wedding to pay for the pressure is on. But I have a unique opportunity here. Not only do I have the time now to explore my great passions for reading, writing , cooking and anything I else I may so happen to choose but I have more support from my fiancé then many women could dream of. So I promise will make the most of this opportunity…even if I’m not entirely sure how yet.
